Full time Mommy-part time at home

Today was my first day of summer. I feel really blessed to have a job outside of my home that I enjoy so I can help support our family. I also feel blessed that my job allows me to be a part time at home Mom. There's really nothing better than spending time with Tatum.

During the school year, I usually only see her about 3 hours in the evening before she goes to bed. Half of the time, she starts getting cranky about an hour or so after I get home. This usually leads to me feeling a lot of mommy-guilt. But why? Am I a bad mom? No. Does she love her caretakers more than me? Don't think so. Should I be at home with her instead of at school? I would love that, but it's not really a possibility right now. I know that none of those statements are true,but they often seem to run through my head. Why is that?

I try to be really present when I'm at home with her. We play, dance, read, and go on walks. I would call myself a good mom, but that doesn't keep me from thinking that I'm missing out. I wonder if I would still feel guilt if I stayed home. Guilt for not providing any financial support for our family.

That's one reason why I love being a teacher. It's like having the best of both worlds. I can help provide for my family and I get a good chunk of stay at home mommy time. So how did we spend our first day?

Today was Tatum's first swim lesson class. We met some other babies and moms and had fun in the pool. We made pancakes,went to the library and played outside. A great start to summer. To any working moms out there: Do you feel the mommy guilt? What do you do to fight it?